5/5/2011

不知道这是否是我们最后一次的相聚

今天有很乱的感觉
嗯。。是的。很乱！

原来。。。
有很多原来。

还有我的孩子们。
原来我是那么爱你们的
原来你们是那么爱我的。

我会的
我会再回去的
等我！
=)

28102010

今天一大早，
我的心情就被破坏了
就凭一句话，
足足让我介意了一个小时。


今天学校结业礼
突然之间很有感慨
想起自己过去几年的愚笨
真的太蠢、太盲目了
还是妈妈说得对
全都被她说中了
可是她说我没有用
这个也对吗？


未来的路
我还应该坚持吗?
妈妈说的话，我从听不进去
可是，事实摆在眼前
过去这几年的结果全都被妈妈说中了
接下来的路，我是否应该听她的？
我不想
真得不想


今天也去见了辅导老师
虽然对选择有了较为肯定的趋向
但是。。。


就算我有勇气坚持
我有这个能力吗？


灰色心情

=(

我不会让这样的情绪困扰我一整天
接下来的几个小时，
我要过得更好！

今天有两个人诚恳地和我道谢
虽然话不多
感觉上只是随口说说的“谢谢你”
我也很开心
就算我也只是举手之劳
但也算是小小的付出

我开心 :)

" NASA reports,

by the next 10 MONTHS, EARTH gets hotter by 4'C from now!!

Himalayan glaciers are melting at a rapid rate.

Lend ur hands to fightglobal warming

-Plant more trees.

-Dont waste water.

-Dont use plactic bags/ tissue paper "

the earth is terribly sicking now.

and we as human being still thought that is none of our business.

we are selfish.

and i m useless.

i know that the effects of using aircon,

i know that the effects of burning fuel,

i know that temperature of surrounding is getting higher and higher rapidly everyday,

i know there are pplssss still suffering because of the natural disaster,

i know evevry small small things in our daily life can help to conserve the earth.

but... i just KNOW. and i did NOTHING for it.

thats why i m useless.

i m irresponsible...:(

my friend told me that i m too negative

but seriously, i dont think so

i strongly feel like 2012 is coming too us very soooon

i m sorry for saying this

but, i know, it will be true one day for SURE!!

they are now suffering at the other corner in the earth.

what should i do to help them??

~pray hard~

要搬家了！
想到要离开住了11++年的房子
就觉得非常的不舍
我真的很喜欢这里
虽然房子小小
但是真的很温暖
这里有着许多许多属于我们家的回忆
不管是好的坏的
都曾经在这里发生、在这里度过...


十二年前的那天
搬到这个地方来
那时的我才五岁
什么都不懂。。。
时间那么快就过去了
我们都长大了 :)


在这里
我们家多了个孩子
也少掉了个长辈......
还有发生过好多好多的事情
这里的每个角落、每个点滴
都曾经充满了咱们的笑声、哭声、吵架声
我要把它永远记住
那是我成长岁月中最大最有色彩的一片拼图
我深怕自己会把它给忘了
可我一点都不想忘记它 T.T


搬家是好事
我这老大姐看着这家也经历了不少
从二房式的小组屋到三方式的公寓现在又搬到排屋去
真的觉得父母太伟大了
为了家人的起居
一生脚踏实地、辛劳的工作
只为了给家人最好的
爸妈都不是有钱人家出生
工作也没赚多少钱
孩子们又总爱乱花钱
现在要为新屋的房屋贷款奔波...


我真希望自己赶快长大
好让我能为家里贡献一份力量 :)

此刻的心情超烂的!
原先的计划泡汤了
太过分了
一次又一次的扫我兴
我真的无法控制自己的情绪
Arh!!!!!!!!!!
每一次都是酱子的
我讨厌你！
我不想见到你!!!!!!!!

90th anniversary and concert

finally, its over and i m sick-ing now :(
the past two days really suffering me
saturday night concert reach skul at 3.30pm and back home at 11.30pm
next morning reach skul at 8am for food and fun fair and reach home at 4.30pm
after that back to school again at 5.30pm
i used 1 hours to make up myself and back to school *geng*
the food and fun fair was totally make me exhausted
busy under the sun and scream like hell
luckily those f2 f3 were helping
thanks a lot ^^

but whatever we did seems like not appreciated :(
people sit under the shade while we stand under the sun
people went back before 2pm
but we have to continue and clean up until 3.30pm
we are not complaining or asking for reward but at least give some appreciate
haiz.. doesn't matter la
we ought to contribute for our own skul right??
finally the 90th anniversary was succeed...
big applause to myself and all helpers which involve in this event...#

Dream

As usual,
after reaching school early in the morning,
i went back to my class and continue my sleeping journey
but what happened today is,
i dreamed something bad
its so rarely if i can still remember what i dreamed everytime when i wake up
but this time was different.
i can still remember every single thing in the dream.
it nearly make me cry when i woke up T.T
PUHLEASE...
that is too bad
i don wan the dream to become true!!
thousand please...

hope that it is only a dream...
forever a dream...
a dream that will never become true...

4/3/2010

S5F JUMBO SALES today
feel like non-of-my-business
i know this is such a selfish thinking
i have my responsibility to do something for my class and also my lovely school
but i really feel like i m 'heartless' to make it

but finally i am quite enjoying it :)
we sold lok lok, rojak, cheesecake, Singapore popiah, packet drinks
we provide game stall too!!!

at first i thought nobody will buy it
and there will be lots of saki-baki
but who knows
everything were sold out in 1 HOUR time
i am super duper happy!! XD
and we get the first place among 7 classes which are having the sales today too
the total amount we collected : RM1000.00
omg!!
~unbelievable~ @.@
i am so proud of it!!! #


this is the first time i feel that i am one of this class :)

2/3/2010

Second rehearsal
however, i dont think that our performance is good enough
i am sure that we can do it better
we did not do the BEST
although there is no more any negative comment
what i hope is EXCELLENT
but not 'so so'..
why cant you understand? :'(

we must aim HIGHER n HIGHER
i am sure, WE CAN DO IT!! #

add oil, my friend!!

25/2/2010

今天的彩排
我没有期待会有很好的回应
毕竟我们是临时抱佛脚的
准备又不充足
嘴里一直说“彩排罢了嘛”
可是当我听见人家对我的评语
心里总觉得很不是滋味 :(

人人都说我们的表现比上一次逊色了
就连老师也觉得我今天的表演欠佳
好多朋友都说对我们俩的表现有点失望
可最令我不开心的是我的拍档却一点都不以为然
也不晓得怎样和她沟通最好
总是说不过她

无可否认，我自己也很不满意今天的表现
我承认今天的确没有把最好的展现出来
我相信我下次会做得更好的。

嗯，我下次的彩排一定要做得更好
不要让老师失望
不要让朋友们失望
不要让对我有信心的人 对我失去信心
更重要的是 不可以让自己失望！！！


我相信我可以！#

20/2/2010

一年后的今天，我闻到了你的味道
我没有弄错
那的确是你的味道
太熟悉了
我不会忘记。。

你仿佛就在我身旁
难道。。你真的在观察着我们吗？

9/2/2010

S5F photographing day!!
hav to take photos for the usage of graduation magazines.
However, it was not fun at all!!!
i mean just for myself...T.T

why i dropped to this class in my last year??
shinyee answered me:
because of your poor result
she really hurts me..
nevertheless, i know my results was sucks last year
i have to appreciate that i did not drop to G class.
but seriously, i dislike my current class.
i never belong to it!!
however, i know i hav to love it!!
well, let me try to like it.
can i do it?
no :(


after school,
library alone
it was totally silence
so scared...
keep listening to music...
until 6.10pm the guy came
wuhh...
continue my work until 6.40pm
left and proceed to tuition


tiring~~#

aim high!!!
aim high!!!
aim high!!!

8/2/2010

went visit to penang low court as a lawatan
organized by kelab pencegahan jenayah.
depart from school at around 8am.
Reach there at 8.20am.
we are distributed into 4 groups.
the court start at 9am.
the judge is a Malay lady.
they speak very soft and fast using BM.
we cant really listen and understand what are they talking about.
it quite disappoint me because our group only watch for about 20 mins.
i think it is because the girl judge tired d ..==
thats why she request to end earlier..
haiz..
missed the chance...
it was the first time i went there
but consider a good and great experience for me la..
after that we had a taklimat from a judge too..
then Q and A.
then sayonara...
back to school on 11.20am...


after school, acc ting shopping again.
finally bought all her things and also mine...^^
back by rapid..
took 1 and a half hour to back home.. #

每年的今天

今天是二月六日
去年的今天
我应该是在殡仪馆吧？！

时间过得真快，
转眼间
阿公已走了一年
再多的不舍
再多的悲伤
都已于事无补
只好把对他永远的思念
留在心坎深处
永远记住
每年的今天。。。
你离开的这一天。。。


虽然我不晓得
一个人死了以后是否完全消失在这个世界
但我一直都坚信着
人逝世了以后
虽然肉身已不再
但是他的灵魂还是存在的
说不定他们还在我们身旁观察着我们呢
真的 我相信


阿公， 祝你天堂快乐！
请您保佑年老的阿嬷。。。#

bad day?

sick today
really not feeling well
lazy going to school when i woke up
thinking to absent
bt... i know i hav to go...

assembly in the morning
very uncomfortable during the whole assembly
knew that our school is shorting of fund
pity school...
just feel like..
how come our own school student also wouldnt like to donate?
haiz...

hair checking after assembly
and finally the last year of my school life
i KENA!!
kena gunting...
this is the first time for me
that why i doesnt feel sad or angry at all
somemore feel enjoying.. XD
that discipline teacher was damn good
better than the others..
no much changes for my hair..

heard a news from teacher after school
consider good news??
hope that we can really do it well n perform the best in our last year

after sivik class, went for cswong tuition
i was absent to tuition last week
scared cannot catch up
quite happy because i was manage to nip on ahead

rush back to school after tuition for rumah sukan
feeling sad in the whole duration
trying to be more open minded
and learning to let go sometimes T.T

i just discover that our school teacher organize a society named PA
it stands for PERSATUAN ANTI-SEKOLAH
haha
those teachers dare to do anything to anti the school management..>.<

planning to balik awal actually
but at last..
stayed until 6pm
tiring day..

stepping into the 2nd months of the year
10 months more to SPM
now, i m starting to be lazy
friends!!! help me!!
i wan to score!!! #

16/12/09

back from penang chinese kindergarden camp
really tired..
but its quite fun
like to be there
the kids there damn cute n funny
n the pplss there.. all baik-baik belaka
hope to be helper there every year together with the same ppl...#

i can treat the children there with full caring n loving
but y i cnt do it to my own brother and sister??
hate myself!! #

12/12/09

yst, went gurney with qian n ping after guitar class.
ate at the same restaurant again, coz it reli cheap n nice.
after tat, went to get my pay...RM 2XX.00 only..
nvm la
as long as i enjoyed myself there
met my ex" colleague" there...-- tapa, dhyan, jogen...
so happy..
feeling like back to my house..
we had ice cream there for dessert
finally, i tried STICKY CHEWY CHOCOLATE !!!
tats my favourite..
omg!!..its reli great!! yummy..
and a double scoop : thin mint and banana split!!
super duper full..
leave there at around 5pm and go back by bus..
chat a lot with ping..
hmm..
went sunshine square to buy things for silu's camp
meet ping again at there..
haha


~thats my day~ #

Goodbye My Love

Finally, i ended my job,
It seems like a long period i worked there, but actually is only 2 weeks time.
Seriously, i love this job very very very very much, as i love this place and the peoples at there.
they r so wonderful except some who like to kacau ppl.
they reli teach me a lot of things.
i appreciate them, i wish to continue my holiday journey there.
but...
at last, it have to be close too.
dono why. my heart really went down when i knew that swensens queensbay is going to close, although i m only a part time worker.
i learn a lotsss of things there.
it cant be learn from books or even school.
the most important one is i trained up myself and try to socialize with the workers and also the customers at there.
although it cause me very tired, but i appreciate every moment i worked there.
although the salary is quite low, but i really like this job very much.
although i always did mistake, but it is really worth to me...
marie, yanwen, wuyou...
i wil never forget the time we curi curi eat the ice cream, coffee, sandwich n watever we did together...
miss u all~~
hopefully they wont forget me after this..

我找到了真正屬于我的東西
那份濃濃的滿足感沖上了我心頭

希望那股熱誠永遠隨著我
祝福我～～

My First Job

basically, i m quite busy in these few days.

jz bcz... >>

i work at here since last Tuesday
this is the first time i work
i would like to work and earn for some experience
i work as a waitress
i take order, serve, clean,, cashiering n do all things just EXCEPT cook n wash
although the salary is just normal n consider as low
but i enjoyed myself a lot in tis restaurant with the workers here n also the FOOD!!
although we cant try it unless we pay for it
bt its enough since i can watch the process to make the ice cream, western food and etc..


its rilly fun n enjoyable
i make frens here n learn to be patient when serving 'some kind' of customers
i have to smile all the time to the customers although i m fed up
i have an Indian-Chinese fren called Anne Marie
and a gal who cum from china named Yan Wen
they are rly great


tis is my first job
i found tis job by myself
i go interview alone i go for work alone
its totally a new and strange environment to me
i hav to suit myself in it and some more have to speak English all the time
its hard to me
bt its a chance for me to talk more n be more confidence
i thk its quite useful for me
luckily, they r so kind n friendly
i stil can handle them suddenly, i felt to be proud of myself i m so brave enough n so independent..XD


for now, i jz tried sticky chewy chocolate n strawberry icecream b4,,,
shshshsh,,,don tell ppl
we curi curi makan eh..
den i get the choco pop n vanilla crunchy cone for FREE today!!!
yeah!! so happy...
the original price is RM9.90 per cone..
thx to jogen( our fountain 'manager' ) and zudin ( swensens qb manager)
[since din is going to resign also, tmr wil be his last day..T.T]


but now, the shop is going to be close
due to some management problem or wat i dono la
haiz..
tis is only my 2nd week to work here...
hope tat i can learn more in tis few days..

i hope tat i can try tis very very soon...>>

exam over!!
its all over for this year!
its time to take a break.

during exam, we went library for study
we made lotz of fun there
that is a good memory for us!!

junfang lovely bookmark~.~

tomyam mee!!
ps: jf eat til laosai~>~

*junfang

*zheler

*shinyee

*blogger herself~~

dead big grasshopper
we saw on the way back to library

......................#